I have been balancing these plates on these long sticks like they do in the circus. I've been running around trying to keep each plate spinning for a really long time. About a year ago the first plate fell. My marriage was going very badly and my husband had an affair. When that plate fell it distracted me and yet I was able to keep the plates spinning. I was dealing with it all! School, the kids, work, home, family, and those plates were spinning. It was all good. Control was mine! It was short lived. The affairs kept coming and at some point all my plates fell. Every one of those suckers fell, hit the ground, and shattered. So what do you do next? The mess is so big that you don't even know where to begin. Do you sweep up the mess? Do you start with new plates? Are any of the plates fixable? What the hell am I doing? It all seems so daunting.
So what am I going to do? I'm going to sweep up ALL the dust that is my marriage and life and start over. I'm good at it! This isn't my first rodeo. The difference is that this time I am going to reinvent myself. Its time to move on and figure out who I am while I am spinning all these plates. First change? I'm switching to melamine plates. Let them fall! Its all good. Those are tough to break......just like me!
Goals for 1-10-2010:
* RUN!
* Not care what everyone else thinks. Your opinion of me is NONE of my business!
* Breath.
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